It’s been a long while since I wrote. When I look back at old posts, I seem to say that when there’s been a gap between posts. I really am sorry about the lapse. We had Christmas and lots of stuff going on with helping with Steven’s parents house building project. There’s also a lot of stuff going on for me that I can’t share about. Sorry, I know that’s cryptic, but that’s the way it has to be right now. Something we can share is that we’re putting together more paperwork for my permanent visa. It will be a blessing when that’s completed.
With everything going on, the last six months have been really hard for me, but as I look back I realize that the Lord has been teaching me a lot. Now, have I learned my lesson and get an A+ and will never have that problem again? Nope. I’m still learning my lessons and still struggling with things, but I do find it amazing to see how the Lord is near and with me as I struggle.
I’m so fickle. Discontent and worry and all sorts of issues come up and I fail so many times, but still God is so merciful and compassionate.
There’s nothing huge and breath-taking and inspiring I can share just now, but I can say, God is a comfort and He hears and listens to our hearts cry. He knows. He knows our thoughts, our actions, our mistakes and our triumphs. I don’t think that means we can keep sinning on purpose. We need to root that out and take it to the Lord, confess it and ask for help to not sin again, then we need to change our habits or attitudes or routines as much as possible to keep from doing those again.
My point here is that God knows. Isn’t that comforting? He knows what’s going on. He cares about us. He has a purpose and a plan. He’s working it out. He knows.
1 O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.
2 Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.
3 Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.
4 For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether.
5 Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.
7 Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
8 If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
10 Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.
12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.
13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.
17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.
19 Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.
20 For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.
21 Do not I hate them, O Lord, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?
22 I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:
24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Thanks for reading. I do have many ideas and things I want to share, but I figured I needed to give some sort of update first. (Even if this update isn’t really an update….)