There’s been a lot going on, but I can’t really share much other than the Lord has been teaching me a lot. And I’ve been struggling a lot.
I’m thankful that our God knows what we need and when we need it. He is in control.
I try to listen to Elisabeth Elliot’s radio broadcast on the BBN radio on a regular basis. It is normally very convicting or applicable to my life. I go to the on demand section because I’m in Australia and our time difference is off from the programming time. The last few weeks Mrs Elliot has been talking about trusting God and not worrying. (Side note, Mrs. Elliot went to be with the Lord last year, but her recordings are broadcast each week day. They are such a blessing and I’m thankful for that ministry.)
Several weeks of sermons at church have been on trusting God. This must be a general pattern I’m supposed to be learning right now, and to keep learning. It’s not easy to do my homework at the moment.
In her broadcast this week, Elisabeth Elliot read this passage:
He is the Rock, his work is perfect: for all his ways are judgement: a God of truth and without iniquity, just and right is he.
I think I needed to hear that.
It’s hard to wait. I like to know what’s going on.
As a trained teacher, I’ve learned to notice things, to be attentive and to know what’s going on all over the classroom, pay attention to student’s needs and to keep a whole bunch of things going on all at once. I also had to plan ahead and to have a goal for each student and had to assess them as we worked to meet those goals. I needed to know how they were doing in maths, writing, spelling and a myriad of other subjects.
I like planning. I like knowing what’s coming. That was something I loved about teaching. I couldn’t always keep up, but I did enjoy doing it.
Something I don’t like is surprises. I don’t know how to act/react. It takes me a long time to process news and analyze it.Things I don’t expect really throw me off and it takes me a long time to get used to ideas and changes.
Sometimes it’s a good thing. Other times it’s a very bad trait for me to have.
I don’t do well having to wait…. My husband laughs at me at Christmas time because I try to get him to let me open presents early… if we have any to open.
Now, I’d like to know why I like presents ( which are often surprises) but I don’t care for other surprises.
So in this time where I’m struggling on waiting, and trusting, I’m learning to pray and share the struggles with the Lord. I have to confess when I’ve been worrying and give it to God. It doesn’t mean I’ll not worry again later, but then it’s my turn to again give it to God. And to keep doing so. He has comforted me much recently.
I hope the Lord is showing His loving and tender care to you.
What are you learning in your daily walk with Him?
God bless you,